im sorry…

sorry if i keep on hurtin you.. sorry if you dont like the things i say or do.. sorry if with you i always put up a fight.. sorry if i cant di anything right.. sorry if you think my excuses are lies. sorry if im not too understanding, sorry for all the headaches and pain i bring, sorry if often its hard for me to swallow my pride .. sorry if im too blinded by anger to see your side, sorry im so complicated.. sorry i cant hold back my tears.. sorry if i always complain about you not meeting my expectations.. sorry if i keep repeating the same mistakes.. sorry for the stupid things i said..

sorry for everything.. i love you so much

old times…

   yesterday i watched “in her shoes”, there was a part where rose and her boyfriend, simon were eating in a jamaican restaurant. simon drew somehting on the placemat then i started to remember when bugsy and i ate at burgoo. there were paper placemats and crayons too. i was telling him that my bunny drawing is much better than his.. well.. he’s an  artist so what can i say?so..he drew a bunny and it was really a big bunny. he even drew me.. i had to move our plates beause i didnt want to ruin our doodles. i miss those times,i miss those days we had. every single day that we spent together was an adventure..we were so crazy about each other..i miss our endless laughs, stories,our lait sessions.. i miss every single day i spent with him..

 

i miss you so much bugsy..so damn much